Peanut butter has always been one of my favorite foods. For a while, I had a serious love-hate relationship with it.
Peanut Butter was a HUGE food trigger for me.
I would want to buy it from the grocery store, I swear it called me by name. I would take the jar of peanut butter home and proceed to eat the entire thing. I would not only feel really sick after, but the guilt and shame I felt were almost unbearable. SHOCKING that this was a time in my life that I was also depriving myself of fats, believing that they were bad. Kind of funny right?! Telling myself I can’t eat fats and then binge on an entire JAR of peanut butter. This is the crazy making of the DIET mentality. When I hear that I can’t have something, or that something is bad I immediately want to eat it.
When we were kids we would see a sign, “WET PAINT DON’T TOUCH”. Well, you instantly wanted to touch it right?! How wet was it? Was it dry yet? I feel like when we are told NO you can’t have, our childhood self-jumps in and says, “NO! I want it ALL”! I felt like I would never in a million years be able to safely have peanut butter in our home. I thought that I would literally have this relationship with it forever.
After finally putting down the diet mentality and allowing myself to eat whatever I want whenever I want it, I made peace with my beloved peanut butter.
I can now have it in the house and not eat the entire jar in one sitting. I can have a little bit here and there and leave the jar for months in the cupboard.
What helped me make this amazing change?? I had to learn what EMOTIONAL triggers I had.
The peanut butter was the SYMPTOM but there was a much deeper root.
The shame I felt kept me in a cycle of self-punishment, feelings of not feeling worthy. This unworthy feeling kept me stuck in a repetitive cycle. I literally was punishing myself with food over and over again to prove to myself that I wasn’t worthy or enough.
I was using the peanut butter as a way to calm anxiety. My bad days triggered a need to comfort and peanut butter was this comfort for me. But the comfort only lasted a moment and then the title wave of shame crashed in.
When I saw this cycle happening I started working with someone with the LifeLine Technique. Something I use in my practice today. It softened the peanut butter trigger and helped me make peace with fats.
I decided to make fats my friend. I eat guacamole, olive oil dressings, nuts, seeds and healthy oils like crazy. I have a balance! When I started to add in healthy fats my body no longer need to go on a JAR crazy phase.
If you are struggling with any guilt and shame cycle with food. Know that there is a way out. You can have your beloved food with love again.
This recipe is made to help you fall in love with chocolate and peanut butter. To nourish your body in a really amazing way with super healthy loving ingredients.
Serves 10 energy balls
Yields 10 balls
These vegan energy balls will pick you up in your afternoon slump. Packed with plant proteins it won't allow your blood sugars to crash and burn. And who doesn't love an excuse to eat chocolate 🙂
20 minTotal Time
- 2 cups soft dates
- 1/3 cup peanut butter
- 1 tbsp cocoa powder
- 1/3 cup of your favourite plant-based chocolate protein. I used VegiDay Chocolate
- 1/2 cup chopped peanuts
- 1/3 cup sugar-free chocolate
- 1/2 tsp coconut oil
- Pulse dates in food processor.
- Add in peanut butter, protein powder, and cocoa. Pulse.
- Roll into 10 balls and place on a tray and put in the freezer, while making melted chocolate.
- Melt chocolate with coconut butter in a saucepan over medium-low heat just until melted and remove from heat.
- Remove balls from freezer, dip in chocolate, and roll in peanut pieces.
- Put in fridge to harden. Keeps best in the fridge in an airtight container.
You could substitute the peanuts for almonds 🙂